Monologue for Ride I find so poetically amazing and bottomlessly appreciated. honest and hearty...intensely inspiring.
I listen and I feel every word that forms each descriptive sentence that formulated the entire pictorial backlog of the story.
Who are you? Are you in touch with all your darkest fantasies?
Have you created a life for yourself where you’re free to experience them?I Have.I Am Fucking Crazy. But I Am Free.
Trip to Marbella, Puerto Banus with my two lovely girlies..I was looking forward to this trip like a fly is to shit, waiting to get into it ..excuse that metaphor but you get my point!!I enjoyed my time with my girlies but, Marbella? would I ever go back?... uhmm... naaahhh!! I'll probably rethink it that when I become a 'super mega rich kid'.. right now I'm just real and even if I was super duper rich and fly (I am fly) there is a level of humility I reckon I would still hold dearly.. I do not believe I was being paro' as my brain cells are in good working order, however my friends considers me to be... I was cripplingly uncomfortable the whole time..
I was the only woman of colour in that town of Puerto Banus, well who was a tourist that is.. all the other types of blacks were very chard smelly African men selling fake Celine, Hermes and Gucci hand bags, purses and fake Ray Bans sunglasses.. they came one after the other, after the other and then another, seriously failing to understand the concept of 'No Thankyou!'. I understand a man has to win his bread but still.. come on!, the worst part was that they all had this strong more than B.O stench which lingered for a further 10 mins after they gave up with the poor sales tactics... Any other black people I saw which were so few worked In very low valued jobs like handing you tissues when you use the toilet in a club or resort of some sort. and even they gave me a hard time because I was a tourist in the area, sooo unheard of... flabbergasted.. I felt quite inadequate as every where I went I got stared down.. any-ways enough of me ranting about the lack of multiculturalism in Marbella, I suppose it is a tourist destination with a clear market who it is surely feeding. now I can understand why the men at immigration gave me such a hard time entering their turrf...I have a tendency to roll with the punches and select the best moments out of the worst... In all things that is!!!The great stories of my life. "No woman, no cry"
CHINGALING: a bubbly straight forward kind of woman. with a warm personality, great sense of humour with a genuine heart.. Love her mad!!!
SALALABOO my Iranian sunshine, eastern fashion goddess with the mental capacity to win.. Pure Love.
SASHCA-ME:
Its only me, 'TOTALLY BLESSED'
MAGNA CARTA WORLD TOUR - LONDON 02 - OCT 14th 2013
My outfit to the Magna Carta world tour. Black silk blouse from Zara woman, last years' purchase paired with tapered trouser form H&M black with symmetric white prints and my trusty black and white low converses for comfort so I can 'Jump around, Jump up and get down'
No outfit of my is complete without one of my many pairs of converses many meaning three but if I could be a campaign face for converse all star footwear because it would just bring me sheer joy yaaahhh =]
CONVERSE ALLSTARS my favour choice of footwear, TOTAL REBELGEAR
I carried a black and gold chain bag with classic makeup look, Kate Moss for Rimmel 702 lipstick and pin-up styled curly hair updo.
by the end of the night my look was completely trashed as I partied and sweat and sang along to the songs I knew ..(only a few)
anyways London 02 arena presented live nation, #rocnation. To be fair I was never a massive Jay Z fan especially hearing about illuminati affiliations etc... Kinda scared me a little like ich... But I got sooo gassed on him after going to see him performance. totally Epic.com.Was the bomb.
I loved the way he ended the show with the tune forever young it had such a nice atmosphere to the arena with everyone lighting up and singing along. #foreveryoung except reality is always something.
THE PARADOX OF OUR TIMES
Is that we have taller buildings, but shorter tempersWider freeways, but narrower viewpointsWe spend more, but we have less.
We have bigger houses, but smaller familiesMore conveniences, but less time.We have more degrees, but less senseMore knowledge, but less judgementMore experts, but more problemsMore medicines, but less wellness.
We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values.We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too oftenWe have learnt how to make a living, but not a life.We have added years to life, but not life to years.We’ve been all the way to the moon and backBut have trouble crossing the street to meet the new neighbour.We have conquered outer space, but not inner space.We’ve cleaned up the air, but polluted our soul.We’ve split the atom, but not our prejudice.We’ve higher incomes, but lower morals.We’ve become long on quantity but short on quality.
These are the times of tall men, and short character;Steep profits, and shallow relationships.These are the times of world peace, but domestic warfare,More leisure, but less fun; more kinds of food, but less nutrition.
These are the days of two incomes, but more divorces;Of fancier houses, but broken homes.It is a time when there is much in the show window, and nothing in the stockroom.
A time when technology can bring this letter to you,
And a time when you can choose,
Either to make a difference …. or just hit, delete
Dalai Lama said that...ish..
A relatively new term that was coined in the late 1970's,by psychologist Dorothy Tennov in the book Love and Limerence: The Experience Of Being In Love which describes the state of being involuntarily obsessed or infatuated with another person. It's a very fatal attraction- with the person who is obsessed feeling that their overblown emotions are reciprocated, whether or not this is actually the case...
I remember studying the Attachment Theory, which emphasises that 'most' of the intense emotions are during the formation period.
Science in formulating LOVE
during the period of Infatuation there is an increase of norepinephrine an dopamine levels in the brain as well as testosterones. now think about the effects of superficial dopamine and norepinephrine - serotonin which is being in the state of estacy just that the receptive compounds of the actual drug... your body naturally releases these chemicals which makes this stage of limerence so confusing yet so addictive to the point one becomes 'crazy in love' which is infact crazy in limerence...
according to Helen Fish, PhD, author of the book Anatomy of Love. along with the aforementioned, she also mentioned that when we move into the attachment phase there is an increase of vasopressin and oxytocin whilst the other hormones return to its normal state.
this can explain why people become unfaithful, i think this can also be scientifically proven if I research further, the obsession with limerence can lead to a constant search for this madness,excitement, the constant high on Limerence - think about it.
this word I came across by chance in the Natural Health Magazine but it's not just a new word that I've learnt, its human behaviour all rolled up into one, there is a meaning and a concept and further research to understand the meaning fully.
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Extract from the book I'm reading at the moment shares insight...
I forgive everything and everyone, including you , even thought I don't know what crimes you have committed. I forgive you because I love you and you don't love me, I forgive you because you help me stay close to my devil, even though I haven't thought of him for years. I forgive you because you rejected me and my powers are wasted, I forgive you because you don't understand who I am or what I am doing here. I forgive you and the devil who touched my body before I even knew what life was about. He touched my body and distorted my soul..
